My own life

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"Dia" dengan kehidupannya, dan gua dengan kehidupan gua
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Kim Jong Kook - Men Feel Sad too

Men feel sad too, though I smile, I am sad
I want to pretend to be strong, to be hard, to be calm
But men get weak over break ups too
I can’t steal your heart so I only steal my tears

What is it about being a guy that even when I’m prickled,
Without a change of face, I just erase you
I hide the scars of my pain deep inside my heart
Because I’m a guy, my tear ducts are blocked

What is pride that I can’t hold onto you right now?
I can’t even tell you I love you so it hurts, hurts, hurts
(I’m a Pierrot who steals your tears in your thick makeup
Give me a chance to embrace your back again
It hurts so much to swallow this alone
It hurts so much that I can’t handle it)

Men feel sad too, though I smile, I am sad
I want to pretend to be strong, to be hard, to be calm
But men get weak over break ups too
I can’t steal your heart so I only steal my tears

I get angry at myself being like this
I should have pulled you back and hugged you when you were leaving
I should’ve placed you in my heart for the last time
All day, I say the things I want to say to you to my friends
I didn’t tell you the words “I love you” and I’m only saying it in my dreams

I’m a fool so I can’t go on if it’s not you
Like a fool, you don’t know me either
(I thought I’d let you go with a cool heart
My love expressions lack
Because I’m a man who pretends to be strong, that’s why it’s sad)

Men feel sad too, though I smile, I am sad
I want to pretend to be strong, to be hard, to be calm
But men get weak over break ups too
I can’t steal your heart so I only steal my tears

Though I’m in front of your house, I can’t call you
Though I miss you, I can’t see you so I turn around but I love you

My love, I can’t leave you even if I die
I endlessly linger around you again today
It’s all because I’m a good-for-nothing, weak man
So I say the words I couldn’t say, I love you

Because I’m a foolish man, because I’m your man
Though it hurts, though my heart rips, I wait for you
I can’t forget the love you gave me, not even in my dreams
I’m alive but it feels like I’m dead, I miss you so much
I’m alive but it feels like I’m dead, I miss you so much

Kim Jong Kook - Erasing

Just like yesterday, I open my eyes, eat breakfast and leave my house
Just like yesterday, I meet my friends for a drink and return home

I felt like I had forgotten something, so I kept looking back
But because I didn’t forget or lose anything, I thought it was nothing

I guess it’s true, because it’s been so long since I’ve been alone
I guess it was true, that I didn’t have enough time to get used to it

In the end when I realized it was you that I was missing,
when I realized that it wouldn’t be filled
Because you’ll slip through like sand even if I hold on

Because I loved you as if the world was ending
Because I loved you as if I would take my last breath
Because it was obvious I would still love you if we broke up
You took all my memories
If I lived remembering everything
I don’t think I’d be able to love anyone else
Thankfully you’re now disappearing from my heart, from my memories

It’s getting hard to remember your face when my eyes are closed
And it’s gotten easier to go to sleep late at night

I must be somewhat fine, enough to make me a little sorry
Although, if you were the same, I would be a bit sad

Because I loved you as if the world was ending
Because I loved you as if I would take my last breath
Because it was obvious I would still love you if we broke up
You took all my memories
If I lived remembering everything
I don’t think I’d be able to love anyone else
Thankfully you’re now far from my heart, my memories

When will I be able to love again
Will I be able to now
I’ve emptied my heart, but if it’s not you it won’t be filled

Even if my love ends
I saw that the world doesn’t end
Even if it hurts so much I can’t breathe
I saw that it disappears

If I lived remembering everything
I don’t think I’d be able to love anyone else
Thankfully you’re now disappearing from my heart, from my memories

Kim Jong Kook - How Lucky

I passed by that road that I hadn’t in a long time and
I recalled the thoughts I’ve had for more than hundreds of times
If I meet you on the street coincidentally
I don’t think it would be awkward anymore

Because I kept thinking about it, it got worn down
Now when I try to bring it up, I can’t remember
When we were able to be happy even though we had nothing
That perfect memory that feels like a lie

If we could meet just once, I would be happy, so happy
So when we had loved each other so much, those memories, those tears
If they came back, I’d be happy

I still have my memories of our love but
I don’t remember how we broke up
I don’t think I’ll be able to leave this spot
I’ll just hope that at least you found happiness

If we could meet just once, I would be happy, so happy
So when we had loved each other so much, those memories, those tears
If they came back, I’d be happy

I have something I want to ask
How much, how much you loved me
How much you must have hated me to leave me
So when we had loved each other so much, those memories, those tears
How you forgot them

Kim Jong Kook - Thinking of You

I remember you
But I don’t have any memories of you
The words, I’m sorry, the words, I’ll do better
The become echoes and make me cry

The sad eyes you looked at me with stay as bruises within my heart
I really, I really must want to see you

I keep thinking of you, I really keep thinking of you
I must be regretful, I must not be able to forget
I miss you, I call for you, only you
I pretended to be fine
When I listened to break-up songs
As much as I’ve hurt you, I must not be able to erase you

I cried for a long time and laughed
And blankly sat in the same place
And every time someone who looked like you
Passed me, I secretly would glance at her

If I could just see you like this, I would be truly happy
I really, I really must have loved you

I keep thinking of you, I really keep thinking of you
I must be regretful, I must not be able to forget
I miss you, I call for you, only you
I pretended to be fine
When I listened to break-up songs
As much as I’ve hurt you, I must not be able to erase you

Why did I send you away
When I would want to see you this much
I love you, love you, I love you
That one person I truly loved

I love you, I really love you
I can’t explain it with more words, only tears fall
I miss you even more, I keep calling for you
I pretended to be fine
When I listened to break-up songs
As much as I’ve hurt you, I must not be able to erase you
I’m thinking of you